Chapter 13

The Door

“By that glance of grace, the door that sets us free.” (Japji Sahib)

A careful person could understand all of it and still be stuck. The eight floors of memory. The warehouse. The portion packed for this life. The arrow in the hand. The trap in choosing. The fire of inclusion. Together they make a good map.

But a map has a limit. If karma is a warehouse filled over more lives than can be counted, then clearing it one box at a time, one good deed at a time, would never end. And the self doing the clearing would keep filling it again, with boxes marked look how much I have cleared.

The Gurus say that effort matters. Honest work matters. Catching the arrow before it leaves the hand matters. Inclusion matters. None of that work is wasted. The Gurus keep all of it. Then they say one thing more. The last step is not something done. It is something given.

Here the second word comes into its own. Karma is what we do. Karam is what is given: kindness, grace. A map can show the rooms. The Guru's word shows the door. The door is called nadar, the kind glance of God.

The plainest example in Sikh memory is Sajjan. His name means friend. He kept a rest house on a lonely road, where travelers stopped for food and a night's sleep. By night he robbed them, and some of them were never seen again. When Guru Nanak and Bhai Mardana came that way, Sajjan took them in and waited for dark. But the Guru did not sleep. He asked Mardana to play the rabab, and he sang. He sang of bronze that shines on the outside and leaves black on the fingers when it is rubbed, and cannot be washed clean though it is washed a hundred times. He sang of who a true friend is: the one still standing beside you when your account is called. Sajjan, listening in the dark, knew the song was about him. He fell at the Guru's feet and told him everything. He gave back what he had taken, and his rest house became the first dharamsal in that land, a house where the Guru's Sikhs gathered.

One night. Not a lifetime of hauling boxes. A door opened, and the boxes did not have to be carried out one by one.

This is the shabad Guru Nanak sang.

ਉਜਲੁ ਕੈਹਾ ਚਿਲਕਣਾ ਘੋਟਿਮ ਕਾਲੜੀ ਮਸੁ ॥

ujal kaihā chilakaṇā ghoṭim kālaṛī mas |

Bronze is bright and shiny, but rub it and black marks come off on your hand.

ਧੋਤਿਆ ਜੂਠਿ ਨ ਉਤਰੈ ਜੇ ਸਉ ਧੋਵਾ ਤਿਸੁ ॥੧॥

dhotiā jūṭh na utarai je sau dhovā tis |1|

Wash it a hundred times, and still that dirt does not come off.

ਸਜਣ ਸੇਈ ਨਾਲਿ ਮੈ ਚਲਦਿਆ ਨਾਲਿ ਚਲੰਨਿ ॥

sajaṇ seī nāl mai chaladiā nāl chalann |

True friends are the ones who walk with me as I go,

ਜਿਥੈ ਲੇਖਾ ਮੰਗੀਐ ਤਿਥੈ ਖੜੇ ਦਿਸੰਨਿ ॥੧॥ ਰਹਾਉ ॥

jithai lekhā maṅgīai tithai khaṛe disann |1| rahāu |

and who are seen standing beside me where the account is asked for.

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ਨਾਨਕ ਨਾਮੁ ਸਮਾਲਿ ਤੂੰ ਬਧਾ ਛੁਟਹਿ ਜਿਤੁ ॥੬॥

nānak nām samāl tūn badhā chhuṭah jit |6|

Nanak says: hold on to the Name. By it, the one who is tied up is set free.

Guru Nanak, Raag Suhi, Ang 729

The one who is bound is set free by the Name. Not by a hundred washings. By the Name.

In Raag Maru, a few lines after the bird and the bait, Guru Nanak pictures the mind as iron in a furnace, burned until it is nothing but slag. Then he writes:

ਭਇਆ ਮਨੂਰੁ ਕੰਚਨੁ ਫਿਰਿ ਹੋਵੈ ਜੇ ਗੁਰੁ ਮਿਲੈ ਤਿਨੇਹਾ ॥

bhaiā manūr kañchan phir hovai je gur milai tinehā |

Iron burned to rusty slag turns to gold again, if one meets such a Guru.

Guru Nanak, Raag Maru, Ang 990

Slag into gold. That is not cleaning. That is being made new.

Guru Arjan opened his song of the twelve months with the whole of this teaching in a single line.

ਕਿਰਤਿ ਕਰਮ ਕੇ ਵੀਛੁੜੇ ਕਰਿ ਕਿਰਪਾ ਮੇਲਹੁ ਰਾਮ ॥

kirat karam ke vīchhuṛe kar kirapā melahu rām |

We were separated by the push of our own deeds. Be kind, O Lord, and bring us back to You.

Guru Arjan, Barah Maha, Ang 133

The first half is karma, the push of our own deeds. The second half is grace. Karma separates. Grace joins.

And in Japji Sahib, Guru Nanak wrote:

ਕਰਮੀ ਆਵੈ ਕਪੜਾ ਨਦਰੀ ਮੋਖੁ ਦੁਆਰੁ ॥

karamī āvai kapaṛā nadarī mokh duār |

By grace comes the robe of honour. By that glance of grace, the door that sets us free.

Japji Sahib, pauri 4

That is the door. Some teachers read the first half of the line another way: by our deeds comes this body, the robe we wear. Either way the second half does not change. The door opens by the glance of grace.

In the same alphabet poem in which he blamed no one but his own deeds, Guru Nanak wrote what becomes of the one who meets the Guru.

ਏਨਾ ਅਖਰਾ ਮਹਿ ਜੋ ਗੁਰਮੁਖਿ ਬੂਝੈ ਤਿਸੁ ਸਿਰਿ ਲੇਖੁ ਨ ਹੋਈ ॥੨॥

enā akharā mah jo guramukh būjhai tis sir lekh na hoī |2|

The one who faces the Guru and understands through these letters has no account left written over them.

Guru Nanak, Asa Patti, Ang 432

No account left. The warehouse cleared, not box by box, but all at once.

Grace cannot be earned. If it could be earned it would be wages, and not grace. But one can turn toward the door. Sajjan did not make himself clean first and then go to the Guru. He fell at the Guru's feet as he was.